No Matter

Sacracment to Sins

2011-05-04T09:42:00.002+08:00

Naive perception often delivers stupidity.
Expectation of others often comes with disappointment.
We all should have know this by now. But many times we refuse to obey such a rule.
Do we ever know how to love and take care of each others?
This, i have in doubts.
Has time and familarity defy respect and concern?
I think I am such. And I know now.

I see as much, people around us, neglected concern and care as they seek happiness in the dark.
I see as much, people beside us, humilating love and friendship as they toy emotions and feeling through their golden years.
I am of no different, no matter how hard i try to be.
We, had lost as who we are long long ago.

I see no true happiness. I see laughter broke into tears. I see myself drown and choke within this world of vanity and insanity.
Our ignorance is our sacracment to sin. Lord please forgive us.

Be gone, the root of ultimate temptations.
For the path of future lies my domination.
Lust, Greed and Wrath, sin the dirt crumbles.
Anger, Gluttony and Sloth, conjure the Abyss's rumbles
Thee man write history, shall war born cruelty.
Thus, pride yield victory, shall saints kill morailty - Samuel, the fallen.

EtErNaL DaMnAtIoN

2011-02-28T21:34:00.004+08:00

Many times i found myself deep within this forest of conspiracy. This endless battle of wits to its final stupidity never seems to amaze and disgust me to seek alternative output of unjust hatred.
We all know where we live, stand and breathe is a place of competition. The entity of peace does not exist without war. The notion of serenity marks the next wave of chaos. Inevitably, we continue to be ravaged by this theory of both yielding and abandonment; we choose not and yet chosen many times led us to defeat and shame.
Such was the nature of human mankind. The supposed higher being of planet Earth. Entwined to this ceased to exist word, Fate.
I believed many do not believe anymore. So as I.
We dwell in Fate of what we will become one day and many times we forsaken that, actions was what make us who we are today. I took this road umpteen times to even beginning to believe I am at a point of no return. Fiery pits of hell awaiting my arrival no matter how much I repent. I am a sinner. A sinner of not able to survive this Nature of mankind. A weaker link of the race. Lesser of the damned.
What do you have to lose? To just even step out. Afraid of being wrong? Cowardice have no place for happiness and achievement but a life of mockery.
What do you have to lose? your pride? The words you breathed of eternity?
If you can compromise for all eternity, be my guest! That is your promise. You are failing people and failing yourself.

You are the greatest mockery you detested to become..

The Laughter of the Court Jester was meant for you! HahaHha - The Court Jester.

My Mask

2011-01-06T00:55:00.006+08:00

It is a while now since i last posted here. Probably a little more than a year. Longer than i thought i would stay away from here. I am a lingerer, ghost of the past. My present haunts by my own past to it's pitiful end. Often found myself so lost in this city. As if the boy in me took over and leading its own carefree life unwilling to realise the responsibilities a person must do to contribute what he have taken and will be taking from mother Earth. Instead i hang around at this pathetic work, this la
nd of sorrow place and many many people who i wished they can just disappear over night, out of my sight, out of my world.

I am naturally a sad person deep down and if layers of layers of mask will hide that sorrow face away, I will be your joker, your fool, your moron or your listener. Over the years i developed this character in me. I am an actor of actual life, a performer to please people as much as possible. I know i have yet to perfect that skill but i am trying my very best. Every attempts are experience in every way. Every try will bring me closer to people in order for me to survive. It is not enough. I need to communicate myself to many many people as such to improve humanity in me.

After writing i feel much better. Yes, J. You continue to lie to yourself ya.

The best mask is no mask at all.- Bayushi's Lies

MudBox HomeWork

2009-09-16T12:03:00.005+08:00

Homework from mudbox! Cow Modeling

From this

To This

This is still not finish just, just my first test test of mudbox nice right? everyone, time to pick up mudbox if you love modeling!~ then you can model all the monster, creatures, abs etc etc!~
I love Mudbox kiss kiss muack muack!~

Recent Happening - MuDbOx MoDeLiNg

2009-09-14T16:57:00.003+08:00

yes, and i still cannot post photos in the blog. duno know what is happening.

Recently took up Mudbox Lession in CG protege. It's two months course, every monday.
Its was so much friendly than Z brush. At least the interface is so much familar. Sorry about teaching me z brush and yet i am not able to use it, dwida. Wasted your precious time.

I will be modeling a leviathan i drew out myself that i took references from ff and monster hunter monsters.
Hope i can complete this in time.

Adrian, our lecturer told us not to pick up something that is beyond our capacability for we ultimately have to hand the project up for marking and determine if you get a cert or not.

Yes i have to use flickr to get picture up my blog. Thank flickr

NoThInG sEeMs RiGhT

2009-09-02T00:10:00.001+08:00

what has happened to blogspot? or issit my connection? mio services got problem?
damn this is been too long. i wanna post photos but its not working and i dun wana use imageshack.
anyone got any suggestions?

decided, tomorrow go down shop to help my dad. hah hope i'll be much of a help.

starting work on oct i guess. yeah i know crawling back to the same old company again. feel abit... abit... abit... i dun know what to say haha.

tomorrow will be a better day. time to get marry and settle down? damn sianz already haha i must be crazy.

What is happening to the Blogspot

2009-08-20T19:59:00.004+08:00

Damn, cannot post pictures, then the posting interface like F**k now.
What is happening to the blogspot? Lets migrate....

Updated my deviant art today and posted some crappy shit, link my deviant page to my blog as well
and create a cheap thumb pic for the link ho ho, i must be too bored to do something like that.

am supposed to continue writing today, but the thought of Garudas... i'll probably do it in the night.
have this preety garuda in my brain haha but abit lazy to start. i know once i start, its hard to stop and
if i stop, i will stop for a long long time.

Saw her on the bus, i dodged to the upper deck with super sonic speed. she looked pale, weak and lonely ( i supposed the word was isolated )
got off the bus in a swift with my ninja move, bet she had no way to notice my existence.

Sent her a message. guessed what she replied.

"Cos my mum passed away recently"

After that, no more replies from her. Called but she never picked.
Funny? why i dodged her for what? she should be dodging me...

Her mum was a kind lady, one of the best lady in the world.
God Bless on her soul, may she rest in peace.

The Rising of the next demon shall be the next winter - Asyura Eternis

The Day before Sam Lee's Music Workshop

2009-07-16T12:22:00.000+08:00

We had Chilli Crabs in Dempsey Road Long Beach after a day trip to 933 mediacorp, WIBI, our sponsored school, and the office itself.

What can i say, he's awesome!~

SAM LEE 李圣杰‘s Music Workshop

2009-06-01T02:14:00.002+08:00

Sam Lee 李圣杰 is coming to singapore for workshop!~ did poster for him. Interested i can get tickets for you. got discount but not free of course. Join Us!~

Sorrie About The Twins That I Have Eaten

2009-04-08T03:31:00.006+08:00

Believe it or not. I bought 4 eggs for the price of 2. i cracked the 1st one and it was a twin and i told patrick. "I 've got a twin." and when i opened the second one it was deja vu! "Shit! i got another twin!"
Trust me when i said i did not put 4 eggs together and remove two shells from the plates. Patrick & me started to wonder since when lab test to manifest better quality food or rapid production tests became so successful that for 2 eggs you get four.
Out of the basket of eggs, getting 1 twin egg is easy, what are the chances of getting two, i must be damn lucky that days. curse myself for not buying 4D lucky draw. Damn

There is always something evil about the cheap stuff you get~ haHahaHah - The Court Jester is Back~

Hi, HI

2009-04-03T21:41:00.003+08:00

One of my Digtal Painting of a Damsel fly.

Lol got people said that its been a long time since i last updated my blog. Haha
Yeah its long enough. For awhile i closed my blog. Was thinking since i never update it, might as well close it.
Well, dun complain, here is the update.

Hair grow long already, don't feel like cutting but was thinking that a man of this age keeping long hair seems alittle unappropriate. Things like meeting clients and stuff like that, you need to portait a reliable image.

I think i lack of that now. oh what the hack. Seriously am not the frontline soldier, more suitable to be running the backend.

Time really flies, now i am really scared. Reaching 30s and still not bit at any successful. Whacking lots of freelance, earning this little pocket money haha.
Let's hope what i had in plan will work.

Have to work hard Jaden, you want a comfortable life you have to work triple hard!! work hard and play hard, sleep less haha. Yeah i suppose for the time being, thats what i will do! GrRRRR RoARRRRrrrRRR!

Torn Wings of the Demon, will Wingles mend it back? - Asyura Eternis Demons Awakening

Stylistics - i can't give you anything

2008-09-12T19:59:00.001+08:00

Feel the Retro in them. See their dance move!!

I can't give you anything but my love

2008-08-13T17:46:00.004+08:00

How can you Not love them. Ladies and Gentlemans, i present you Smap and Stylistics - I can't give you anything

SMAPLISTICS - i cant give you anything (but my love) - SMAP and The Stylistics

ThE aWaKeN oF tHe DeMoN sHaLl DaRkEn ThIs DaY - Asyura Eternis

ThE hElL WiF CoMmItMeNtS

2008-07-07T18:57:00.003+08:00

And yes, the hell with commitments! Why the hell do i have to responsiblity for it. Don't live your life just because you want it to because its NOT happening! Damn It.

Be Inspired And Not Captivated - Gyr Hikaru

New Banner

2008-07-03T16:03:00.002+08:00

Finally done up my Banner for this blog haha. i know its not really that good. But using the remaining time in the office to do this, how good can i get hah. Pardon me ~ahems~.

100 Questions

2008-06-12T12:56:00.003+08:00

01. What’s the connection between you and the last person that called you?
She is my mum

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Nope but i do enjoy it at times when its on silent mode.

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
Reach office check email.

04. When did you last cry?
3 years ago i think, or 4?

05. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Hate peanut but i like butter

06. What do you want in your life right now?
Get a good job.

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
Never.

08. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
my mouse

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
Unbelieveable its a T-shirt and Jean

10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
Friendster has a friend who wanna share an application with you

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
Sometimes i think

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Never

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Made in Honor

14. What are you proud of?
My Creativity that now already have a brain of its own and it decides when it wanna let me be creative.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Thank for registering with GoonzuOnline

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Koda Kumi- 1000 words

17. Do you have any nicknames?
Asyura

18. What does your last received text message say?
Who was it from?A chinese character that means Yes.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
2am

20.Are you currently happy?
Nope

21. Who gives you the best advice?
The one that give best advice is working in shukodo right now working part-time and we having been in contact for like ten thousand years.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Yup

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
Connie, tat was like 2 mins?

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Some idotic Chinese gal keep skpeing me. Thanks please leave me alone

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
YeeRong

26. Do you wear toe socks?
sock not toe socks

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
my mum

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
What do you think?

29. What annoys you most in a person?
The person whose brain that grows in the butt and while he/she sits too long that numb his/her brain and start asking pathetic questions.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Yes

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
Tobacco is good enough

32. What is the colour of your room?
Blue, yellow, white, purplish gray.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
Yes, and i make sure i wont get caught.

34. Do you believe in the saying ‘talk is cheap’?
Nope, though many were but still the main stream of communication.

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Me

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Connie

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
Nope

38. Do you have a life?
Life, i think i will have to pass.

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn’t?
Yes and its just recently

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
1000 words does not change anything

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
MsN picture of Robin asking Some crap doesnt that counts?

42. Last time you smiled?
2days ago

43. Have you changed this year?
I changed everyday so i wont smell bad.

44. What are you listening right now?
Ayumi Hamasaki - Marionette

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Nope

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Close! i AM BLIND DUN YOU KNOW!?

47. Is there a quote you live by?
If i am to die tomorrow, i will not die to regret today. Death 11:14 Asyura

48. Do you want someone you can’t have?
Aerith Gainsborough

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Yes

50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in week?
Set a goal to Collect all the planes in Ace combat 5 the Unsung war

51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
At E-Game in Cinelesiure seeing the guys play game

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
You know i dun know that question, pls do not ask me.

53. What song best describe your love life?
1000 words

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
Nope or refuse to know

55. Who always make you laugh?
Patrick, YeeRong- you know who you are! lol and thanks for making me laugh.

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Chinese, Cantonese, Teochew, Hokkien, a smidge of Jap

57. Favourite website?
None

58. What your middle name?
Yu

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
How can one see beyond tomorrow plus, i am blind.

60. What do you think you are like?
i am a Crippled dragon whose once have high hope of things but now he is just hiding and lurking around somewhere dark

61. Who will you choose to die with?
i dun believe i can choose, and why would i wanna bring someone along where i am suppose to travel that journey alone.

62. Where have you been today?
Office office and office

63. What game do you play often?
Ace Combat PS2

64. Who are you missing right now?
Lyir Wingles

65. If you’ve to choose between friend n loves, who will you choose?
Although i wanna say friends, but my duty lie within the loveones.

66. What are you doing right now?
Listening to Jay Zhou- Qian li zhi Wai.

67. Which primary school are you from?
Blangah Rise Pri

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Black, White Red

69. What emotion you like to show?
Grim

70. What is your life to you?
I dun know, have live and die it all to tell.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Keep quiet and think think think

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Its either Elva or my Sister

73. Who do you admire most?
Christopher, of his Knowledge though most of the time he seldom put it to good use or either he is too emotional tied up.

74. Which month are you born in?
Nov

75. How are you feeling right now?
Sick

76. What is the time now?
1242

77. Where are you now?
In front of my com in office( yes i am doing this during office hour)

78. What colour did you use to dye your hair?
My hair is natural colour, come see for yourself.

79. Why are you doing this test?
Someone do this while she is bored. and in return her for answering some of my questions. i return her of my 100 answers

80. What do you do when you’re moody?
Sit smoke coffee

81. At which age you wish to get marry?
when i was 18 i say 23. when i was 23 i said 28. now i am 27 i say i aM SCARE!

82. Who is more important to you? Love partner or friends?
Love ones

83. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Enough confidence for wat? ramping a bigger guy in a basketball match? of course! Parachute jump? bring it on.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
None, believing the mask of everyone? think again.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yeah

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
Save the world if it means my life.

87. What is your goal for this year?
Get into a better company than this current one

88. Do you believe in eternal love?
Sure, in the story that i written

89. What feeling do you love most?
When everything is going according to what i have planned.

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
Ask brainless question again and i will kill you! I WhaLE kIll U!

91. What feeling you hate the most?
You sometimes feel that something fills up your heart and throat and you cant breathe, felt your heart beating hard and you can't cry.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
try hard

93. Do you believe in god?
I believe. pls take care of ppl around mi and the ppl suffering in all over the world.

94. Who cares for you most?
My parents.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Seriously....

96. What will you bring when you fight?
Some person that i hate and instigate them to fight. Then call the police catch the both of them and put them in jail.

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
fall in love with someone which my guts tells mi not to.

98. What would you feel when someone no longer cares for you?
So be it.
99. What "talents" do you posses?
Markmanship? Jack of all trait, master of none? tat sucks right?

100.What do you want now?
Get a air tix, go anywhere!

Wow and you all Read that 100 questions. do yourself a favor, give me a 100 answers. Thanks

"Don't let yourself linger in confusion. Take care and you will always be in my heart." - Iden Obu.

FiNaLlY sOmE uPdAtE

2008-04-09T18:35:00.004+08:00

wow! suprises! come in to take a look, do some minor updates.
Still in the same company, hardly about to think of future so might as well let nature take its course. i believe i will get to somewhere eventually.

Living the past in the present that leads to the future, what do you know? - Asyura Eternis

TeN tHoUsAnD yEaRs OlD bLoG

2007-09-19T16:52:00.000+08:00

I know, i know i have abandoned this blog sooOOoooOoooo damn long haha. pardon me for the disapperance, hah the fact that disappeared for so long is because basically i have nothing more to write in here. Do you believe a webby address is like .... i don't know how to discribe but to tell you the fact that everytime i try to open up and write a new blog, there is always an unseen force that resisted me. haha ya i know lame excuse. i am practically just can't be bothered.
Anyway, i am back. How's everyone going? Now now, willy, dun say i never update my blog ya. next time will post the photo we all took in Ma masion. promise and dun ask mi so frequent unless i forgot haha.
life been the same, in the same company, doing almost the same old things. same lousy boring life. so, you guys can see your life are much better than mine! SO stop whinning and get on with it~! lol
i thought i remembered what to type and tell you guys but suddenly it sliped my mind! oh man, old age has caught up on me.
give mi some updates ya, through phone, email, via blog, come my office look for mi. or anything. look for mi.

Someone pick up the phone, many times don't. How come?

When shall the truth be reveal while this plain stupidilty none has control, replay over and over again. - Asyura Eternis

CrAp

2007-04-05T13:41:00.000+08:00

Crap! All Crap!
He read the memories, knew the story and embrace the pain. He died. - Asyura Eternis

TiMe & StRenGtH. CoMe BaCk To Me

2007-03-02T21:28:00.001+08:00

Just doing a short blog. Been awhile since i come back in here again.
How's everyone been doing?
Well i am still about the same. My contract for this production is going to end soon, probably staying to renew the contract or move on to a greater and challenging life ahead of me. It will be a stressful one but will definately hope it to be a fruitful one.
Been awhile still i post any pictures... pretty lazy to blog already. Some of my friends also left their blog and move on. Yeah kinda of like putting the past behind you and carry the vision and path ahead.
When time comes, one has to leave where he/she belongs i think. Or maybe i don't belong here. Or such mediocre life is not of my living lifestyle? Of coz, deep down i crave for such simplicity but is it my destiny to enjoy this fortunate living i feel so comfortable in?

Time will tell and i still don't have enough.
Energy will drive me, yet so it's not sufficient.

Where did my time and energy went to?
Where was the time that i had enough to run around all day without doing anything?
Where were the energy that i had enough for me to carry on even my body gave way to thrist, tire and pain?
I need them back again to drive me once more. Just once more and i will live no regret. No any younger and not too old. And all it seems like i have been walking in circles unable to break free.

Argh all the crap that i am writing. No more nonsense!

Leave me my burden,
Leave me my soul.
Leave me my time and strength,
for i know i walk alone - Asyura Eternis

HaPpY bIrThDaY Ly|r WiNgLeS

2006-12-13T18:16:00.001+08:00

Its been awhile since i last blog.

Sorrie desiree, for not replying your messages. I was busy for awhile and not able to sit by the computer for too long. Posted alot of photos on the blog, thats how my life been going on haha^^

Life have been pretty much the same. Actually its not because i am busy to blog, just that i do not have any idea of what to blog. Came online to blog only for one reason.

If you are reading this. Happy Birthday to you. Yarra. And may your new year be a blissful one^^

Let there be no one to know of your existence, nonetheless there's still no drop of my persistence. - Asyura Eternis

2006-12-02T01:38:00.000+08:00

Our early christmas party SST irene and claire 011206

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Our early christmas party SST me and Mr Kuodo 011206

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Our early christmas party SST me and wahid 011206

2006-12-02T01:37:00.001+08:00

Our early christmas party SST me and BB 011206

2006-12-02T01:37:00.000+08:00

Our early christmas party SST me and irene 011206

2006-12-02T01:36:00.002+08:00

Our early christmas party SST me and sheila 011206

2006-12-02T01:36:00.001+08:00

Our early christmas party SST me and bridge 011206

2006-12-02T01:36:00.000+08:00

Our early christmas party SST me and pyron 011206

2006-12-02T01:34:00.001+08:00

141106 a treat from collegues at ma masion this is mr patrick

2006-12-02T01:34:00.000+08:00

141106 my birthday Meiyi happy with her share of cake

2006-12-02T01:32:00.001+08:00

My beautiful sister finally got married off 161106

2006-12-02T01:30:00.001+08:00

101006 Dragon tiger gate version 2

2006-12-02T01:30:00.000+08:00

101006 Dragon tiger gate haha

2006-12-02T01:29:00.002+08:00

021106 DBO willy

2006-12-02T01:29:00.001+08:00

021106 DBO bryan

2006-12-02T01:29:00.000+08:00

311006 Lunch time Macdonald selene and me

2006-12-02T01:28:00.001+08:00